I accept things that people say, being told that something will be all right or that it's happening as it should. I suppose I don't try to stop it because it's...easier, more comfortable, to allow myself to believe that everything is okay. I suppose it amounts to lying to myself.

I'm looking at what I have now. I'm trying to accept that what I want may not happen...that things don't always work out the way we want. I think if I can be happy with who and what I am now, whatever future comes will be one I can, at least, accept.